It’s been a full year now – me living and creating my life without having a “home”. To be precise, not having an apartment or a house, where I would have all my stuff and where I would go in between travelling.

Why did I choose this? In 2022 there were a lot of things in my awareness, in my world, that I so desired to change, but no matter what I did, they didn’t change. At the same time my apartment had been whispering to me already for quite a while to resign the contract. I kept asking “but where do I move??”; I kept looking at different apartments, all over the place, in Finland and outside of Finland.

Nothing was “it”; you know that sense when something just clicks, it feels super light, expansive, exciting. Or at least spacious.

For a while I was really confused about this, until I realised that my apartment didn’t say “get a new apartment”. It was just “move out”. So finally I got that okay, I have to make some totally different choice. It took a while to get it, as I had no reference point to what this would be or look like.

So I had to ask a lot of questions, find a lot of information, check all kinds of different possibilities.

At first I moved all my things over to my mom’s apartment and my sister’s garage. But they both are a bit restless, and are moving all the time, so after a few months I rented a garage, where I took most of my things.

And this is basically what this whole year has been like; just choosing different things, and in that process finding out what works and what doesn’t. Adjusting, transforming.

Some months ago I wrote this another blog about the many things I have learned during this time, you can read it here.

So now what? After a year I have even less desire to have one, solid place. I’m allowing my feet to hang freely in the air, and walk on ever changing clouds. They are stormy sometimes. At other times, they are the most unreal beautiful, peaceful sunset candy colours. And all kinds of other stuff too.

The main thing is, this sky changes all the time. As do I. As does our world. I’m having so much more ease at the moment exploring how different everything could be, and how much more and what else and how different I can be, when I create my living this way.

I am “forced” (by myself) to ask questions I’ve never asked before, because I didn’t really have to, so I let myself off the hook. You could call this “self-manipulation”; knowing what you require and knowing what it takes to get you there. And then doing it.

My favourite question to ask has been and still is
What would it take for me to stop avoiding me?

And recently I have added these:
What can I know that I don’t yet know?
What can I be that I don’t yet be?
What can I receive that I don’t yet receive?

So why all this?

Because I would like to be more. Not “be more like someone else” but to be more ME. And that, being you, is a constant expansion and exploration. This year I have let go of so much; things, but especially points of view. Things in my head. What is getting revealed underneath is the me I am underneath everything that I had collected over many lifetimes in this world. Different, miraculous, not-at-all-what-I-thought-I-am me.

You are not the stuff you carry with you. If anything, the stuff you carry (all of your worries, insecurities, judgements, feelings, thoughts, memories, also physical things) is just a blanket that covers the real you.

I’m not saying that ”being me” means ”no-home, travel all the time”. That is just the way that at this very moment, in these 10 seconds, I can explore me more.

What choice would give YOU more of you? What choices, big and small, could you make every day to explore more what you uniquely are (and are capable of)?

If you would like to explore being you together, you are warmly invited to check my upcoming Being You Classes here.